We had one highlight at the start of the week: attending the Apex theatre to hear the Cathedral Bach choir present Bach's St Mark's Passion. A piece I had not heard before, although referencing it once in the play I wrote about Bach's life. I hold to this beautiful music to remind me that we must not despair even under the blackest sky. For it has not been an easy week.
On Wednesday, I had follow-up telephone calls from the oncologists and radiotherapists at Addenbrooke's to ask how I was getting on. I told them of my immeasurable tiredness: or immeasurable at least in terms of hard numbers but easily counted in the hours I seem to spend slumped in the chair, a blanket about my knees and pillows to my back. Both teams commented that "this is completely normal after intense radiotherapy", and reassured that it will improve in a few weeks. To recuperate in idleness would not be difficult of itself, though I am having to watch Annie undertake more and more of the 'little jobs' I would normally do in my stride - walking the dog, bringing the bins in, even a bit of the cooking or going out for a meal occasionally to ease the burden of housework. Now I squat like a dead lump, useless and of little value.
Andre has been granted his citizenship papers, and has arranged for the ceremony next week, where he must swear allegiance to the King. We are invited along to support him, and look forward to witnessing a unique ceremony. Although even here I have let Annie down, for I had offered to take her to choose a new dress but have felt too tired and worn to even get dressed, let alone drive to the Freeport shopping centre.
To crown a bad week, we had the boiler serviced on Wednesday. For some reason, the serviceman decided to fit a new hose and had to bleed the system. He warned that it might smell for an hour or two, but at six p.m. the smell was increasing and permeating the house, and I noted oil seeping from beneath the boiler. Taking the front off revealed a deep puddle of oil in the drip tray beneath the new pipe which was clearly continuing to leak down the side of the boiler and pool beneath it. We got the emergency plumber out who, in fairness, did arrive quickly and retighten the joints. He did his best to mop up the spill, but there must be a puddle remaining beneath the boiler, for even with windows open and the extractor fan full on, the nauseating smell permeates the whole house. Each day since I wake in the night with the taste of diesel oil in my nose, on my tongue, my throat, my lungs and in my stomach. It must have also seeped through to my brain, leaving me dizzy and disorientated, although that may just be me anyway at the present time.
The boilerman came back with a spray he claimed would neutralise the smell, but it doesn't. Annie and I are now trapped in a world where we cannot imagine what clean, fresh air must be like. I shall never again take for granted the beauty of a simple atmosphere without diesel.